Remember That!

This was one of the very first lessons I learned in Katryna Counseling.

My worth.

It is NOT defined by anyone or anything.

It just IS.

We are born with it, Yo.

It is infinite.

NO MATTER WHAT we do or don't do.

Our worth remains the same.

What other people say about you or think about you - does not effect your worth!!

So, straighten that crown.

And live up to that worth!

 

Self Affirmations

I usually do self affirmations when I am on the treadmill.

Since I have not been consistent as of late about being on the treadmill, I have not been consistent with doing positive affirmations.

This is a negative, People!!

It doesn't matter what your self affirmations are - do them!!

 

Bye

This.

Heidi 2.0.

It came MUCH later than what a lot of people thought it should.

BUT...

And, there IS a but...

I needed to continue to fall and fail so that I could learn from it all.

And so Heidi 2.0 would be legit.

I was not ready to let things go. 

I was holding onto Heidi 1.0 because it was comfortable and I didn't REALLY know better.

Now, though.

Now, I'm living Heidi 2.0 like a boss.

Once again...

Props to my T, Becky Beck, Miss Birdie for not leaving me stranded on the trail.

 

Stuck

Yesterday, I was asked to go live in a group page.

I did.

I can legit talk for days.

There had been a comment in a Messenger group earlier in the day about "feeling stuck."

At the of my live, which was on a completely different topic, I brought this up.

And, I led in with "WE ARE NEVER STUCK."

Here are my thoughts on this topic:

When I had my stroke, I was stuck.

Like literally stuck in a bed, paralyzed.

I FELT stuck.

However, Friends.

I was never actually stuck.

I could still blink my eyes.

I could still smile a great crooked smile.

I could still use my right side like a boss.

So, I was not stuck.

The only way we get stuck is if we choose to be stuck.

We always, always have the ability to PIVOT.

I freaking love this word.

Pivot.

Pivot.

Turn to the left or the right.

Find a different path off the path that you are currently on.

Sit down.

Stand up.

Talk to people face-to-face.

Pick up the phone and call.

Join new networks.

Listen to different music.

Move your body - any part of your body that you can move.

Pivot.

 

Roots

T got this for me for Christmas.

It's beautiful.

Like, SO beautiful.

But, there's a story behind it.

She told me that when things are hard in our marriage and our family, to always look at this and remember how strong our roots are.

It's true.

Our roots are strong.

 

Stop It

I know a lot of addicts.

In fact, as you know, I believe that just about everyone is addicted to something.

For some reason, if the addiction is considered "harmless," it's not considered an addiction.

Or something like that.

I'm an addict.

It's a terrible disease that takes over a person's soul and denies humans of their agency.

I'm a recovering addict.

It is a lifelong journey of recovery.

I am also a wife and a mom.

I am also an employee and a business owner.

I am also a blogger and a baseball fan.

I am also a colorer and a documentary lover.

I am also an auntie and a sister.

I am also a lover of yellow and an ice cream fanatic.

I am also a Coke Zero liker a lotter and a friend.

I stopped worrying about the judgements that people put on me.

That is their problem to deal with, or not to deal with.

As a reminder, there is not a line for people with "big" sins and a line for people with "little" sins.

There's just a line.

I love addicts.

I love recovering addicts.

They are the bravest of the brave.

To dig into that closet of despair, hurt, neglect, abuse, fear, anger...

It is the darkest of places.

And, addicts all have to open that door and let it all fall out on top of them as they sort through it.

There is no dumpster that can be set on fire.

It is going through the pieces of that close one by one and learning to love ourselves anyways.

Next time you see an addict... which is pretty much everyone you see... 

Don't consider them an addict.

Consider them a human who is lost and who, at some point, will have to open a closet of horror.

 

Prepared For an Extraordinary Destiny

I love C.S. Lewis.

I love this quote, too. 

Hardships are when we find ourselves on our knees because we have no where else to go.

We are literally drawn to the God we believe in;

Not because we've seen Him with our eyes, but because we feel Him in these moments when we are stripped of all worldly confidence.

Once we understand that our trials are not to show us our weakness, but to bring us to our strengths, we see our lives very differently.

We are more available, more present, to experience what we are meant to experience to bring us to our extraordinary destiny.

The hardest possible trials bring the opportunity to get things right.

To get the help we need.

To seek a better, more fit village.

To present our truth.

To live our best lives.

Without these trials, we remain stuck.

In misery.

It wasn't until my soul was just about wrecked that I discovered what had been weighing me down my entire life.

It wasn't until there was no more bottom to hit that I discovered I was ready to climb up and out, no matter how long it took.

It wasn't until I could only see darkness, that I searched for the light.

It is BECAUSE of my trials, because of my tribulations, because of my terrible choices that I am now able to not only see the light, but live in it.

Keep going.

Keep trying.

There REALLY IS health and happiness ahead.