Messages

Since coming forward - out into the wide open land of the Judgement Zone - I have had so many messages from Loves that I don't even know very well.

And it makes my heart SO happy.

So many people have messaged me and told me that they watched my first Heidicction Live, that they have read my FB posts on addiction and treatment, and that they have read this blog and they are inspired to seek help themselves. 

For addictions and character weaknesses they didn't even know they had!

They now get to take their lives and write their brave new ending.

And I'll be rooting for their rise every step of their journey.

I have also read messages from Loves - who I know, and some who I don't - who talk about how there is no possible way that addicts love their children.

As I have watched every single episode of the show, Intervention, I have often thought that.

Ironic.

I watched the show Intervention about addicts, as an addict who had no clue I was an addict.

And I questioned these people and their inability to parent.

I questioned whether or not they loved their children.

Because if they did, they would NOT be an addict.

If they did, they would quit right this minute and be the parent their children deserved.

They would get help and be better right NOW.

Then, I realized I was one of them.

And, Loves, I can say one thing with absolute assurance.

I love my children.

More than life itself.

I love my children EVEN MORE THAN MY ADDICTION.

However, my addiction took over my choices.

It took over my time, my energy, my ability to choose.

It took over my agency.

My actions did not align with my feelings for my children.

It was my children, and their devastation and their sadness and their heartache and their love for their mama, who made me see that I am an addict and that I need help.

Not just for me, but for them.

One of the most important things for non-addicts to realize is that addiction is a thing.

Research it. Study it. Learn about it.

You might find out that you, yourself, are an addict.

I guarantee that you will realize that you, at the very least have family members, who are addicts.

There are resources for you, as well.

Be slow to judge and quick to love.

Most definitely set up boundaries.

But, love.