Self Care

I think I have hit my breaking point this week with the COVID-19.

I feel like I have broken.

I know that Mike has felt that negative energy from me as well.

I have not been my optimistic, happy, rooting for my own rise self.

I think I have realized that I really miss my self care routines.

AND IT'S NOT SELFISH.

It's real.

And it's okay.

I miss going to the gym.

The gym is my outlet.

It is also where I go and feel strong, physically.

I miss having lash extensions.

I know that this sounds ridiculous, selfish, greedy...

In fact, I know that it IS actually those things.

However, it is also something that I do for me that makes me FEEL better.

I miss going to my nail family and having my finger nails painted and my arms and legs rubbed and loving on those sweet people.

Last night, we had a date night.

In our bedroom.

We shared a carton of ice cream.

And we talked.

And we laughed.

And I feel better today.

Our usual routine is that Mike cooks and I clean up and take charge of the dishwasher.

It works really well for us.

However, Mike suggested last night that we change things up:

We cook together (which we have done a few times) and he helps with clean up so that we can go for a good walk every night.

This will get me exercising.

I sit for nine hours a day.

He's right.

That's a great idea.

I ordered some magnetic false eye lashes.

I put them on for the first time this morning.

Mike helped with placement.

He is my biggest cheerleader.

I could have actual poop smeared on my face and he would still kiss my face and tell me that I'm amazing.

Having those on makes me FEEL better.

I am not pulling my eyelashes out again.

And, he offered to paint my nails.

This is a hard time because we are out of our routines.

We are trying to find new normals that are manageable.

And in the midst of all of it, we need to be constantly checking in with our feelings and our emotions.

Meditation is extremely important.

Getting good sleep is important.

Expressing how we are feeling is important.

Communicating with our loved ones is important.

You can do this!