Wish Healing

This quote contains a lot of healing.

I have told this story before, but I'll tell it again because it is powerful.

It changed me.

Many years ago...

Probably 12 years ago, I had a conversation with my Becky Beck.

I'm telling you, this lady is going to be sent straight to the highest kingdom of glory automatically!

Anywho, I was talking to her about how I was constantly praying that my boys' father would be responsible and pay child support and spend consistent time with his children.

And, that was true.

I was pleading, no begging, God to instill in him these feelings.

Mind you, I am fully aware that everyone has agency and can make their own decisions, but I NEEDED God to step in here and just take that agency right away.

It doesn't work that way.

FYI.

Anywho again, Becky Beck said this:

"Heidi, instead of praying for that, why don't you pray that you will be able to forgive him and that God will make up the difference?"

Huh.

I had definitely never thought about taking that route.

Ever.

In the history of ever.

But, I agreed to do it.

Beginning that very day, I prayed that I would forgive him and I asked God to make up the difference.

I'm telling you that Jesus took the wheel!

From that day forward, my hatred (and it was legit hate) toward him went away.

In fact, I didn't feel anything but sorrow for him from that day on.

I felt sadness for him that he was missing out on the most amazing boys ever.

In the history of ever.

I felt sorry for him.

Sadness.

But never again did I feel anger or bitterness or betrayal or hatred.

And, there will never be enough time for me to list all of the thousands of ways that God has always made up the difference.

People donating clothes to my boys.

People leaving random gifts on our doorsteps.

People bringing food.

People giving us money for Christmas.

People buying school supplies for my boys.

People fixing our cars.

People watching my children.

People taking my children camping and hiking and doing amazing activities with them.

My children have had the most amazing male leaders in scouts and in church.

Family members have stepped in from day one to help financially, emotionally and physically with my children. 

My jobs have always had just the right people to love us in just the way we have needed to be loved.

By wishing others healing, we actually prevent pain for ourselves.

By wishing people goodness, rather than pain and karma, we bring peace to ourselves too.

People will cause us pain.

That's life.

By wishing them pain, we are doing exactly what they did to us.

And that's not who we want to be.