No Weakness

For the last week, or so, I have struggled A LOT with my attitude.

I've been very short.

Very frustrated.

Easily irritated by every dang thing.

Not wanting to be affectionate, which is very strange for me.

I have done everything I have been trained to do:

1. Ask myself what I am feeling

2. Meditate.

3. Yoga

4. Gym

5. UV light

6. Color

Still, no relief from my attitude.

I have been on anti-depressants for almost 30 years.

I will be on them forever, and that's okay.

I was talking to Mike yesterday at the gym and telling him all of this.

No doubt, he's noticed my attitude.

Poor man has taken the brunt of it.

I have constantly asked myself what is wrong, and have no answer.

It's time for blood work.

I am 43.

I had a hysterectomy 11 years ago.

Maybe something is off with my hormones?

But, it's time to call in backup!

There was a time when I would have really judged myself!

WHY am I behaving like this?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

Everyone says that you can CHOOSE how you act...

Etc.

Sometimes, no matter how hard we try, we really can't choose how we act.

We need help.

It's time.

And, that's not a weakness.

That's a great thing.

So, in a couple of weeks I will go in to get my blood work done and we will go from there!