"Discomfort"

 In my neuropsych appointment on Friday, Erica and I discussed where I am at currently, compared to last year.

It's a world of difference.

Not by chance, or by some miracle.

But by work (hard, hard work) and by diligence and by grace from Heavenly Father.

He knew that I needed Erica AND Katryna.

Erica is much more scientific - trying to save my life.

Katryna is more spiritual/tough love - trying to save my salvation.

Erica and I laughed as she reminded me that a year ago, I was talking about how "uncomfortable" I would be in a relationship with Mike.

At the time, she said, "Heidi, discomfort just means different. And, Heaven knows you NEED different."

I explained that discomfort always meant "bad" to me.

Like, run!

Faster!

Go to someone who needs saving, Heidi.

Go to someone who will never love you or even like you - that's safer, Heidi.

You deserve hurt and pain, Heidi.

She helped me to look at those things for what they really are.

And, they were bad.

Discomfort was just different, and different was good.

And now, here we are.

Life is peaceful and safe and loving.

Not perfect. 

That's not a thing.

But so stable and good.

I read this wonderful quote over the weekend by Hank Smith:

"When you feel the Spirit pulling you in a difficult direction, know that anything the Savior is taking you towards is greater than anything He is asking you to leave behind."

If that isn't the truth!