Hard!

I messaged Katryna yesterday morning:

"Is it normal to feel sad and hurt and confused today when I've been feeling days of hope and acceptance?"

Because let's face it, I am still new to this emotion thing and I feel like I'm going backwards.

Yes, it has only been 2 1/2 weeks, but I felt like I was doing SO good.

Then, BOOM.

Sad.

Hurt.

Confused.

Betrayed.

"Broken."

I was getting used to the hopeful and accepted feelings.

But, such is life.

Turns out this is all very normal.

Healthy, even.

At least that's what the professionals say.

But, hard.

Miss Birdie sent me these yesterday.

Someday we just need different things.

Yesterday, I wanted to stay home and cry.

I didn't want to go to the gym.

So, I made sure I went to the gym.

I know I have to keep going; I have to keep trying.

I know that I am not alone.

But, I sure feel lonely.

And... it's all normal.