Holy As You Are

I began reading this book last night.

I am not sure how long I have had it, but it's beautiful.

I wept as I read the introduction and Chapter One.

Wept.

I have found that as I am consciously and constantly seeking my Savior's love over the last almost month, I am changing words in stories or in books to "she" or "Heidi" or "you."

I am making teachings very personal to me.

As I read in 3rd Nephi this morning, I changed many of the words to personalize verses to me and my experiences.

I have meditated for three years now... since the stroke.

It was a prerequisite to being discharged from the hospital.

I had to learn how to meditate and how to do yoga.

However, I am learning SO much about meditation through my Becky Beck and Brooke Snow.

Meditation is not just chanting and sitting cross-legged with your hands on your knees.

It is breath.

Posture.

Forgiveness.

Trying again.

It is listenting.

Slowing your mind.

Trying again.

It is feeling.

Stillness.

Light and love.

It is visualization.

Breathing out the natural man.

Trying again.

It has completely changed the way I pray over the last two or three days.

I has changed the way I visualize over the last two or three days.

I am relying on it to adjust the way I feel about personal revelation (something I have always struggled with).

I have that "intuition" but I've always hoped would turn into an angel coming down and telling me EVERYTHING...

But that doesn't usually happen...

Dang it!

But with meditation, I am getting there!!!