My Why

As you go through addiction recovery, and really any kind of recovery, there is a lot said about knowing your "why."

If we know our WHY, we can start on the correct path.

The HOW will come.

The WHEN, WHERE, WHO will come.

So long as we know our WHY, we can get started.

These four.

These four have always been my why.

I just sought the world's validation in my how.

Rather than teaming up with God on the how, I reached out to the world.

It doesn't go so well when we go that way.

Once I understood that, things got on the right course.

I love these four infinitely.

To the full moon and back.

With every fiber of my soul.

I love that Jackson face-times me throughout the week.

I love that he tells me about work and about girls and about more girls.

I love that he stops by when he is up this way.

I love that he is happy and is helping people.

I love that Braxton checks on me.

Always.

I love that he works so hard.

I love that he gets me shakes when he and Mia go out to eat.

I love that he is silly.

I love that Kaydon comes in to tell me goodnight.

I love that he is so, darn excited to go on his mission.

I love that he is such a good brother.

I love that he is so organized and wants to talk about that organization with me.

 I love that Colton hugs me every single day.

Just because.

I love that he is brave in a world that can be so ugly.

I love that he is always aware of others.

I love that he has really taken on advocating for himself.

I love these boys so, darn much.

They are my WHY.

They are my everything.