I have been struggling for the last couple of weeks with triggers. They seem to be coming one after another. I know what they are:
1. Dad dying & being resuscitated 8 times
2. Colton working through issues + eye appointment + dentist appointment in two days
3. Kaydon leaving on his mission
4. Braxton & Mia moving out
I know that they are related not to the present, but to past issues which cause feelings of abandonment and rejection. These issues are caused by years of abuse & neglect.
Even though I KNOW what is triggering me and WHY it is triggering me and from WHEN these triggers come, I still have to work through them - one at a time!
What does that look like?
1. Sitting with them
2. Pinpointing them and understanding them
3. Writing down the trigger, from where it comes, and that it is a past experience - not present
*** Writing things down automatically takes our brain out of emotion and into intellectual state***
4. Breath work + thought work = letting go of the feelings as I recognize that they are not based on the present. Being present. Being AWARE of the present.
Triggers come ALL THE TIME. Recovery, being present, being in our true self, doing all the "right things" does not take triggers away. It DOES, however, allow us awareness so that we can work with them and through them as they come.
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