Process Addiction - You Are Never Alone

The last few weeks, I have felt unraveled.

I heard that word on a program last night and immediately fell in love with it.

Unraveled:

To disengage or separate threads of ; cause to come apart by or as if separating threads; to resolve the intricacy, complexity, or obscurity of

Yes, I have been unraveled.

As I paused to really think about why this might be, I was immediately filled with gratitude and abundance for the AWARENESS that I was unraveled.

I reached out to my Becky, my Cyd, and T.

This picture is an actual depiction of what your village should look like, and what my village DID look like as I looked around at the separation of my threads.

There was an incident, well an entire day, a few weeks ago that seemed to have begun the disentaglement.

I was aware of it.

I cried through it.

I talked through it.

I wrote and wrote and wrote about it in my journal.

But that wasn't all.

There was more.

So, I allowed myself to sit in awareness and be a detective, of sorts.

I noticed that my monthly blueprint was not being followed to a "T."

Yes, I was doing the goals.

But I wasn't doing them as often as I should be.

For instance, I had only gone to the gym four days instead of five.

And, for me, that makes a difference.

I had missed two nights of personal inventory.

I noticed that missing just two nights had made it so that my soul and my body carried those two days into the following days and it was a complete disengagement of my threads.

I became aware that I NEED to stick to my monthly blueprint in a stalwart manner.

Of course, if I'm sick or injured that is a time to be compassionate with myself.

But, my goals are my goals for a reason - they keep me where I want to be.

We are never alone.

I am so grateful for my village who listen to me ugly cry, who validate my feelings and emotions, and who remind me of my worth.

Daily.