I'm An Addict

I was watching an interview yesterday.

It was with the sweet girl from "Juggling the Jenkins."

I don't know much about her, although I follow her on Facebook because her videos make me laugh and are SO real... which can be very different from what we see on social media.

The Today Show was interviewing her.

She is an addict.

She was addicted to alcohol and drugs.

She said something in this interview that resonated with me, and that has not left my mind since I heard it yesterday.

She said, "I'm an addict. Because I'm an addict, I can be addicted to anything: watching Netlix, food, my phone... I no longer drink alcohol or do drugs, but I am still an addict."

Truth dot com.

I'm an addict.

And, although I am no longer searching for affection, affirmation, adoration, and love... I'm an addict.

I can easily become addicted to food or the gym or Hulu tv series...

I am an addict.

Being an addict is not about WANTING whatever it is we are addicted to...

It becomes a necessity to our existence.

We are not addicted, necessarily, to our "drug of choice," 

We are addicted to escaping our reality...

Our neglect, our abuse, our lack of understanding, our lack of feelings, our desperate need for acceptance, etc.

I'm an addict.

I will always be an addict.