Balance

Much like "patience" is not normally a word used to describe Yours Truly,

Neither is "balance!"

Neither is "inside voice user."

There's more where that came from, too.

Here is a little example of how I am not so good at balance:

Neighbor of ours moved in.

Nice, nice guy.

Good-looking guy!

Great dad!

Dude has a job, a car, and now a nice house!

Whilst living by us, he was super friendly to the boys and I.

In fact, he asked me out a couple of times.

I ditched him every single time.

And, it was more than once.

One time, he asked me out in front of Kaydon.

Kaydon said to me after we went in the house,"That guy has a had a crush on you for a minute. Forgot to tell ya."
And then he went about his business.

I was like, "Wait, what?"

"Yeah, Ma. He's got a thing for you. We must have forgotten to tell you."

The guy moved because he bought a house a few blocks away.

He invited me over for a house-warming party.

I ditched him that night, too.

Like, A LOT of ditching.

A lot.

There was an Amazon box delivered to his house.

I texted him to tell him.

I told him I could drop it off to him last night on my way home from work.

And, I did.

Nicest guy ever.

Then he said, "What are you doing now?"
"Picking up CBD orders. Dropping off CBD orders."

He asked, "Then what?"

"Then I promised Colton I'd take him to use his gift cards."

He said, "Okay. Dinner tomorrow?"

I said, "Okay."
He then asks, "Are you going to ditch me like you have the other 29 times?"
I mean, it was a fair question.

I told him I wouldn't.

Colton and I were driving to drop off CBD and I told him.

Colton said, "Mommy! Mike is brave! You have literally ditched him like 29 times and he still asks you out!"

True that.

Balance - not my thing.

Since recovery, I've been like anti-dating at all.

Even this nice guy.

Not that we would be dating...

It would just be dinner.

But even little things like that are scary to me.

PS...

He had something come up at work.

So, he is ditching me tonight.

Heidi 29 Poor Unfortunate Soul 1