I Just Got Permission

I had my neuro check on Friday.

Bless their hearts.

They continue to save me.

For real. For real.

I was talking to my NeuroPsychologist.

Whom I love.

And she is for real for real.

I was trying to explain a feeling I was having that I was not understanding.

I have a SERIOUS issue with judging my emotions and feelings, which is how they get stuck and how I get stuck in them...

She talked me through it, then I started talking about some other aspect of the feeling...

She stopped me and said, "Heidi! That is NOT your problem. That is not your issue!"

Oh.

She discussed what a red flag should be for me.

I mean, it would seem obvious to other people... but it was like light bulb moments for me!

We talked about the fact that I want everyone to like me - not to hate me - and I don't want to hurt feelings. 

So, with people who are idiots, she suggested that I reply with "Poor Baby!"

I told her that I felt overjoyed that I had just been given permission to tell people that their perceptions, their feelings, their reactions to me are not my problem and that I don't have to do anything to fix them!!!