Balloon Release

I have been struggling as of late...

Probably for a week, or so.

I know that it's really out of hand when I just can't go anymore.

At that point, serious intervention is necessary.

Yesterday, I went to the gym.

It was a "I have to go to the gym today so that I can carry on with life" kind of day.

I tanned for 10 minutes.

This is necessary for my body.

My body HAS to have direct Vitamin D.

In the Winter months, tanning is the only way for me to get that direct UV light.

Then, I got on the treadmill.

Barefoot.

I walked completely inclined, but at a slow pace.

I turned Christmas music on in my headphones and I closed my eyes as I walked.

It was time to do some releasing.

So, I did.

I pictured in my mind every single thing that I can feel weighing on me right now.

Every one of those things is in a separate balloon, tied to my wrist.

It is heavy.

It is dragging me down.

I don't NEED to carry these things anymore.

I can release them.

So, I did.

One by one, I pictured each balloon and its contents.

I determined if I needed to hold on to it, if I could release it, or if I needed to tie it to an imaginary chair next to me.

Most, I was able to cut from my wrist.

I would watch in my imagination as each would float into the sky and far away from me, releasing weight from my body and my mind.

Some, I decided would need to be re-visited during "worry" time.

Those, I tied to the chair next to me. 

By the end of this physical and mental exercise, I had no balloons left on my wrist.

I felt much lighter emotionally and ready to go back home and conquer the rest of what the day would bring me.

*Note: this is the exercise I do most often. It is something that I am able to visualize very well. This exercise works so well for me. It is very mindful, and is a form of meditation that I am able to do by myself, without the need to be guided through it.

If there is an exercise that works for you - do it!