Being a single parent was not on the first vision board I made in Mrs. Kuiper's second grade class.
Being a mother was.
Being single, period, was not on that very first vision board.
Being a mother was.
Part of living in our worth is realizing, recognizing, and EMBRACING that things are as they should be.
Being a single parent has brought challenges that have taken me to my knees on multiple occasions:
- Financial burdens that are SO heavy to carry for 22 years. Child support non-existent for years and years and years.
- Time management (working full-time, working multiple jobs, getting the boys where they need to go, home making, cooking, shopping, comforting, appointments, homework, school projects, church activities...)
- Medical issues for my babes (30 operations total)
- Parenting alone is something that feels very unnatural. I have made decisions based on my own logic, moral compass, what I felt was right at the time. Parenting alone means you don't have anyone to bounce ideas off of. It's all on one parent.
- My boys not having a strong relationship with their father.
When in my true self, however, and living IN my worth, I recognize that without these opportunities, my relationship with my Father in Heaven would look incredibly different.
My need to rely on his comfort and grace would not be what it is today.
There is something to be said, also, for the relationship between a single mother and her sons.
My boys tell me EVERYTHING.
Things I never really wanted to know, People!
We are a team.
Their bond... the four of them... is my greatest accomplishment.
The joy I receive from their joy is unspeakable.
The things that they have overcome, or carried, is truly awe-inspiring.
There is no straight and narrow path, Friends.
It is ALWAYS winding.
It is uphill and downhill.
It is steep at times.
Sometimes it feels literally impossible.
The mists of darkness blanket each path.
They are everywhere.
There are large and spacious buildings on both sides, lining the path.
Every path is different.
This is ours.
I couldn't be more grateful.
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