Heidi Rae Coaching - Embrace the Cellulite

Babes!!

Come join me in a full circle for a few moments, will you? Come with all of your insecurities, please. Come to this circle 100% vulnerable. I plan to do the same. In fact, I'll go first.

I have cellulite. I have a LOT of cellulite. It starts at my knees and goes up to my booty. Both legs. Thick and lumpy. Dimpling my skin in abundance.

Several years ago, I went to a Spa and purchased a cellulite wrap that was supposed to firm it all up, take it all away, rid me of the lumpy lumps that have been with me since the beginning. I went into the room wrapped only in a towel. The lady doing the wrap immediately stated, "Whoa! This cellulite is bad! I don't think a wrap is going to fix this!!!" Let's be clear, this was far from the first time I had been told something about myself that couldn't "be fixed." That doesn't mean it didn't sting like every other thing about me that wasn't fixable.

I never went to pool parties. I never went to neighborhood parties where swimsuits were the dress code. I avoided any youth activities that would have swimsuit-required plans. I avoided walking around pools or lakes in just my swimsuit, even as a 45 year old mama!!

Then, a few nights ago, I had a "Stop it Heidi" moment! I was climbing out of the bathtub and staring at myself in the mirror. I saw my c-section/hysterectomy scar. I saw my back surgeries (3) scar. I saw my hips, etched with stretch marks, that carried the weight of four humans. I saw my two legs, that both work, decorated with lumps and bumps and dimples and I said a some things OUT LOUD as I looked in the mirror:

Heidi Rae, your body has survived single motherhood of four boys. It has survived abuse. It has survived heart surgery, a stroke, a hysterectomy following four live births.

Heidi Rae, your boys and your grandbabies could not care less about your scars or your dimpled legs or your big hips!

Heidi Rae, you are going to Mexico in 18 days and you are going to wear the dang swim suits without hoodies wrapped around your dang waist!!!!!

Let's be real -- who even came up with the idea that cellulite was a bad thing? An ugly thing? Something to be hidden??

Your insecurity might not be cellulite. It might be thinning hair or crooked teeth or hairy toes. I have no idea! But you hide it. You worry about it. People have said things about it. And it makes you feel less than. You compare yourself to others and wonder why you.

I hope that you have a moment very soon when you look yourself in the mirror and remind yourself that you are worthy as you are... not after a wrap (which don't work anyways) that is supposed to rid you of cellulite; not after you get the lip filler; not after you lose 20 pounds; not after your hair grows out - but now. As you are.

*I am in no way saying that doing what you can to feel better about yourself is bad. It's not. I AM saying that I don't want you to wait until those things happen to feel worthy as you are.