As Long As You Don't Die

Sometimes in therapy, I laugh. 

Out loud.

I cry a lot.

But, sometimes I laugh.

Two weeks ago, my therapist said to me, "The only thing you have to be afraid of at this point is dying. Because you still have a LOT of work to day."

I laughed out loud because she is so RIGHT.

We are on this Earth to do what we have agreed to do.

We are on this Earth to make mistakes, to learn to love, to learn to forgive, to learn to feel, to learn to be better, to learn to rely on our Heavenly Father, to learn to help others.

We are on this Earth to strive to do better.

No longer how long it takes us.

There is nothing that says we have to be better, or best, by the time we are 25 years old. 

There is nothing that says we have a deadline on when we need to have it all figured out and have it all together.

We just need to keep going.

We just need to do our best.

When we know better, we can do better.

There is not a certain amount of chances we get, then our chances are out.

There is not a certain number of not-as-bad-of-sins and bad sins that we get as mulligans.

There is not a limit to how many times we can try again.

We get an endless amount of do-overs with our Heavenly Father.

Furthermore, He isn't even keeping count.

In our mortal minds, our prideful minds, our defensive minds, we like to try to put limits on each other and on ourselves.

It's unnecessary.

God is the only one who decides.

If we get up today and we are more humble than yesterday...

that's a win.

If we get up today and we are more patient than yesterday...

that's a win.

If we get up today and we recognize that we did something or somethings that were inappropriate or unnecessary or hurtful or dishonest or that lacked integrity and we say we are sorry...

that's a win.

If we pray today, even if we prayed yesterday...

that's a win.

If we put up boundaries to protect our Spirits today...

that's a win.

If we resist temptation to hate or to smear or to gossip or to spread rumors today about anyone...

that's a win.

We have so many opportunities to win each day.

Heavenly Father is not keeping tallies of our sorry's.

He isn't putting a limit on how many times we can come to Him and tell him that we need help to overcome some really hard things.

He isn't tracking how many times we mess up and start over.

What He is keeping track of, in my mind, is that we are trying.

We are striving.

We are doing what we have said we would do.

And, we are doing our best.

As long as I don't die today, I've still got time to be better, to do better, to strive more, to let go of things that don't matter...